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August 2015

Nick Carter on Dancing With The Stars

OHMIGOD!!!! I am soo excited!!!!!!! Dreams are coming true and worlds are finally colliding. Nick Carter will be competing on this season of Dancing With the Stars on ABC. I’ve always been a fan of DWTS. While I was growing up, my sister competed in competitive ballroom dancing while she was away at college. When she would come home for breaks, she would break down the basic steps of all the dances.  She had also taught me how to figure out what kind of dance went along to any kind of song by counting along to the beat and whatnot.  I have been watching DWTS since the first season aired. Once they started to bring on members from different boy bands i thought to myself, “Hey, why hasn’t a member of the Backstreet Boys done a season of it.”

Yeh thats right, I’m a Backstreet Boys fan. I always have and always will be a DIE HARD BSB fan. And naturally growing up, Nick Carter was my ultimate celebrity crush.  And in recent years I’ve had the pleasure of meeting all of the members multiple times. I am over the moon ecstatic that Nick is finally doing the show.  Apparently he has been approached to do it for the past 4 seasons, but between his schedule with the guys and his own side projects he hadn’t had the time.  Thankfully  its happening this season.

My prediction on his success on the show is that he is going to at least end up in the semi-finals.  All past boybanders have ended up there. They’re crowd pleasing to the predominately female audience.  Nick doubts his dancing skills, but c’mon the guy has been dancing all of his life. He also has a very competitive streak in him. I witnessed it myself on the beach in the Bahamas when i got to participate in a volleyball game with him and Brian.. I was on Nick’s team.  Unfortunately we lost that round.

check out that booty doe
check out that booty doe


i even think he will do better than when his little brother Aaron was on the show.  His brother competed on Season 9 and ended up being 5th, but his little brother also doesn’t have the fan power that Nick does. Of course the only way Nick is going to make it so far besides relying and learning and fine tuning his dancing skills, is by fans voting for him to go to the top.  Nick will dominate that dance floor.  He may have some trouble loosening up his hips for the latin dances, but I’m sure his friends Joey Fatone and Drew Lachey (past competitors) Howie D. and Kevin (bandmates) can give him plenty of tips.

I of course will be blogging every week after the monday night episodes about all of the competitors for this season. The whole cast of Season 21 of Dancing with the Stars will be announced on September 2.  The two night premiere event is September 14 on ABC at 8pm EST.

Watch Nick Whip and Nae Nae


Practice What You Preach

One of my biggest pet peeves with people is when they are blatant hypocrites.  They say, believe, say and practice one thing and place judgement on people who go against it, all the while they’re actions follow the latter.  My grew up with a hypocrite, known as my mother.  She stated that she followed the Catholic Church and preached to me, while I was growing up, about pre-marital sex, lying, and a whole host of other things, and yet i came to find out that she was totally having sex when she was a teenager and all she did was make up lies and stir up drama with friends and family constantly. She would actually make me watch television shows that featured “troubled kids” highlighting that my actions would lead me down their path and then force me to watch “19 Kids and Counting” when it first aired, although she didn’t necessarily agree with every extreme ideal.

As a result, I ended up interested in the show, mainly because i could not fathom that people like that still existed in the 21st century.  They hide their children in this tiny bubble where they are unable to explore the and fully experience the world with a completely open mind and yet they expose them to strangers to “spread the word of the bible” because just about anything can be fixed by it. I always felt that was a load a bullshit.  No one is perfect and i knew all along that of one or more of those kids was going to fuck up somehow or that one of their kids was gay, which i mean can still happen because they have way too many kids.

And what do you know, I was right all along.  I wasn’t surprised that Josh had fondled young girls. When people live in sexually repressed homes, things tend to get out of control once hormones go into effect and curiosity gets the best of them. However,  the fact that he went after his own sisters is disturbing. I understand the cute family friend or even the cousin that you only see once in a while, but your two sisters? And they had to lock the door so that Josh couldn’t get to them? Thats fucking creepy as shit.  And his penance was to be sent away to this other pedophile and do hard labor? How does that teach him anything?  Does that teach him that when girls say no to anything that you don’t continue? Did his sisters get the proper psychological care that they needed when these events took place? Did he get proper psych evaluation?  How would this have played out if the roles were reversed and it was one of the girls doing the molesting? Would the treatment of how their parents “handled it” been any different? Would her punishment be more or less harsh? Would she also be written off by her community for just being crazed with hormones? No she would be deemed as some sort of strumpet in the christian community and would be unfit for marriage or whatever bullshit.

It also makes me sad and concerned that his sisters forgave him for his behavior and actions. That’s very unsettling to me.  It makes me think that they were never in the right mindset about it and that maybe they still fully can’t grasp the severity of the situation. It’s like they have a weird case of Stockholm Syndrome.

The cherry on top of this lovely, succulent cake is that Josh Duggar was the first celebrity to be outed by the Ashley Madison hack.  The guy had TWO separate accounts from February 2013 to May of 2015, coincidentally right when the first scandal broke. He spend close to $1000 including $250 for an “affair guarantee”  Basically that meant that if he was guaranteed to have an affair within the first three months of his membership and if he didn’t he would get that money back. His list of preferences sound super creepy: “Conventional Sex,” “Experimenting with Sex Toys,” One-Night Stands,” “Open to Experimentation,” “Gentleness,” “Good With Your Hands,” Sensual Massage,” “Extended Foreplay/Teasing,” “Bubble Bath for 2,” “Likes to Give Oral Sex,” “Likes to Receive Oral Sex,” “Someone I Can Teach,” “Someone Who Can Teach Me,” “Kissing,” “Cuddling and Hugging,” “Sharing Fantasies,” “Sex Talk.”

He also has admitted that he had been watching a lot of porn during this time and it became an addiction and he acts like that thats the worst part. Watch all the porn you want buddy. its the rule of “Look, but don’t touch”.  How is it that you were the head of some Christian family council, whatever that is, and you preach about not having sex out of wedlock and pretty much only having sex to pro create and yet you don’t go on Ashley Madison once and sign up, but TWICE and you also have an OKCupid account.  Like how many women actually met him on these sites? Did any of them recognize him? Was he actually successful at all? Why has no one come out about this? Did he give them hush money? How does your WIFE who birthed FOUR FUCKING CHILDREN FROM YOUR PIECE OF SHIT SPERM FEEEL ABOUT THIS?!  Would he ever had confessed this if he wasn’t actually caught? Did he ever feel any sort of guilt for cheating or attempting to cheat on his wife? Well, he didn’t attempt, he did. Whether or not he was successful in the actual act of having sex with another woman, he was doing things that he had to hide from his wife, his job, and his family.

I read an article that stated that her brother is super upset at Josh and has offered Anna to come move in with him along with her kids. Unfortunately Anna, so far, has said no.  Let’s back track on Anna’s life.  She, herself, was home-schooled in the same way that the Duggars are/was. She was taught to be submissive and that DIVORCE ISN’T AN OPTION.  So she’s supposed to stick by her assbag of a husband for the rest of her life and live in constant fear that he will continue to cheat on her? What kind of woman power is that? And women want to live in a society where they have to ask for power instead of demanding it? What kind of bullshit is that?

The sad truth is that even if she would leave Josh, even with her brother’s help, it would be very hard for her to move on without him.  Her education wasn’t good growing up and she has no work experience whatsoever. Her parents set her up for failure. Her parents set her up to live this sad and miserable life. If she did find a job, it would be minimum wage and no matter where you live in this country, you can’t live on minimum wage once you factor in the necessities of life and that’s by yourself. Doing it with four kids would be impossible. Sure, she’s has been and is in the public eye now and I’m sure that if someone set up a GoFundMe people would donate, but it would be people like me who are liberal and believe that women should be able to stand on their own two feet. The people within her church and her community wouldn’t help because they look down on divorce.  If things were the other way around and it was Anna who was cheating, what would the Duggars be saying about their daughter-in-law? Would her sister-in-laws be quoting Bible verses about forgiveness? Probably not. Women are not equal in those kind of eyes. They are less than. And after all of the shit that they do for their men, thats a fucking crying shame.  Josh should be on his knees begging his WIFE not Him, but his WIFE to accept his apology. I hope she never forgives him for it. i hope she hangs this over his head for the rest of his life and I hope she changes herself for the better and becomes a stronger woman and teaches her children to not fall into the shadow of their good-for-nothing father.

I’ve been in relationships where i found out that i had been cheated on and it hurt. Why wasn’t I good enough for him? Why wouldn’t he just break up with me if he wanted to be with someone else? Though technically both times i found out that previous boyfriends had cheated, i also sought revenge. The first one had cheated on me with one of my best friends and instead of him taking ME to his senior prom and my junior prom, he took her. After they left his prom they went and had sex and that was her first time ever.  So the night after i somehow convinced him to hang out with me and I banged the shit out of him, knowing fully well that it would get back to her. She deserved it. She shouldn’t have started fooling around with my boyfriend, Instead she should have grown some fucking balls and told me. The other time i found out my boyfriend was cheating on me, he wouldn’t admit to it when i asked him.  But before i asked him (there was hard core proof anyway) i cheated on him with an ex boyfriend out of anger and revenge. I threw that in his face.  Basically, DONT FUCK WITH ME.  If i was married and found out that my husband was on Ashley Madison, or any other dating site for that matter,  i would make his life a living hell.  I guess Anna has a different kind of strength to sit there and bear it. I just hope that in the end, she makes the best decision for her and her children, regardless of what her family, community and church thinks seems appropriate.

The Pros and Cons of Having a Puppy

About a month ago, my brother-in-law finally bugged my sister enough about getting another dog. Every day he would show her a picture of a different puppy that needed to be rescued. She finally caved when she saw a very handsome,  tiny blonde that was from Tennessee. He was born in a puppy mill and was in a kill shelter when a local rescue group from CT was transporting him and about a dozen other puppies and dogs up north.  We had been told that he was a golden retriever and shih tzu mix… I know that’s a strange combo, however we already have two shih tzus and we thought that he would end up being about 25 pounds. BOY, WERE THEY WRONG.

When the initial pick up/drop off happened. He was handed to my sister and brother-in-law with dried poo dripping all over his butt, on his tail, and al over his legs and back paws.  They brought him home, gave him a bath, and THEN introduced him to the other two dogs. The two shih tzus were not happy.  We take him to the vet and it turns out that he has TWO different parasites in his system that are making him have diarrhea, being underweight, risking passage to the other dogs, and all around just feeling like crap.  However, he was so happy to be in a home even though he had to be completely separated from the other dogs while his meds kicked in.  He was an angel those first couple of weeks. He never peed where he wasn’t supposed to.  He was mainly quiet and would “yip” until he found his actual voice. And all he wanted to do was frolick and play fetch and cuddle and kiss you.

Fast forward until now. He started off as seven pounds.. and now he’s pushing 25. He EATS EVERYTHING he can get his mouth around. We have officially found out that he is a Labrador Coonhound mix and that means HE DOES NOT SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! Trying to go to sleep in a freaking nightmare.  He cries, whines, and barks until he tires himself out and that whole process takes about 45 minutes.  Every time I take my eye off of him for one second, he’s eating the other dogs food, chewing on mulch, or attacking the daffodils in the front yard. Last night he chewed up my very expensive flip flop. It has a ton of tiny little teeth marks, chunks bitten (and probably swallowed) off, the small part of fabric on it ripped apart. He’s constantly pissing off the other two by pouncing on them, barking right into their face, and wrapping his giant mouth around their tiny bodies. My fear is that he might accidentally kill one of them. I’ve stepped in more wet spots these past couple weeks than I’ve ever had before. He’s making my normally dormant allergies flare up. He’s kicked me in the face, bitten my toes and fingers, and every time you look at him there is GUILT in his eyes. The other day he farted so badly that he smelled it and then got up and sat back down in a different spot. He’s a fucking jerk all around and he doesn’t care.

At the same time, the look on his face when you come home just makes a bad day better with his long tail smacking against the TV stand, making an audible thud.  His fur smells like maple syrup. I SHIT YOU NOT. Every time i smell him i crave waffles and pancakes and french toast. its so delightful and satisfying when i bury my face in fur and stroke his velvety ears.  Whenever I sneeze he freaks out, climbs on top of me, then sniffs my face and simultaneously licks me to make sure that I’m still alive and breathing. He is super gentle when taking a treat out of your hand. And he freaks out whenever he hears the sound of the toilet flush and the vacuum turned on.  Yesterday we decided to play with giant bubbles and we found out that is is also afraid of the these soapy floating objects. He’ll sit next to you and put his head in your lap and will be all up in your business when he notices you’re eating something.  There’s times when I hate him which is mainly when he’s being annoying or i found out that he chewed up something of mine, or when I’m trying to sleep and he won’t shut the fuck up. But for the most part I love him. The puppy phase is tough and feels like its taking forever for him to be more calm and “mature”, but it will go by in a flash.  He’s already grown about 4 inches and thats just been a month!

I’m not used to having, what will be, such a large dog in the house where I’m watching it grow up.  All of my dogs have been on the smaller side. He amazes me everyday with whatever new trick he seems to learn and which ultimately will probably get him in trouble.  It wouldn’t surprise me to see that he climbed the tree in our front yard and he’s just perched on a branch.  If that day does come, we are so fucked.

Movie Review: American Ultra


If i had to give this a rating between 1-10, I would give it a 6. Its not great, its not awful, its just EH. If you’re unaware of the movie here is a basic synopsis:

A small-town stoner (Jesse Eisenberg) discovers that he’s actually a lethal sleeper agent, part of a program to develop a supersoldier. When shadowy government forces decide to eliminate him, he and his girlfriend (Kristen Stewart) must fight for their lives. This action comedy reunites Eisenberg and Stewart, who previously played a couple in the 2009 coming-of-age film Adventureland. Topher Grace, Tony Hale, John Leguizamo, Bill Pullman, Connie Britton, and Walton Goggins co-star.

Don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of good calls made in the movie. Kristen Stewart, who is known for her lack of performing in films, actually didn’t suck for once. She wasn’t even the thing that ruined the movie. For once her acting was actually quite convincing and she wasn’t so awkward. Maybe it’s something that she has finally grow out of. We can only hope.  Jesse’s performance as a dim witted stoner was believable as well. Even once he is activated he still has his dumb stoner moments with a poor thought process on details.

I guess I’m just a stickler when it comes to details. I have questions. One of them is how can the main character afford a trip to Hawaii for him and his girlfriend when he works at a shitty grocery/convenient store?  Plane tickets aren’t cheap and hotel bookings and cancellations don’t come free. I get that as an unknown secret agent they were probably somehow paying him, but if he was unaware of his abilities, he would also be unaware of the hidden bank account and even though his girlfriend knows the whole time, she didn’t exactly know that the trip was happening at first. it’s details like that that drive me nuts.  Also, who thinks its ok to train a bunch of psychos and lunatics for government purpose? Who in their right mind thinks that that is OK? Anyway I digress. This isn’t getting me to my ultimate point which is why the movie kind of blew.

Its categorized as an action comedy.. ITS NOT EVEN THAT FUNNY!!!!!!!! There are about 3 “HA HA HA” moments and that is it. Maybe my expectations were just too high on this movie, since every other movie that I’ve seen in the theaters this summer has been on point. This one,  I’m deeply disappointed that I spent $10.50 on a ticket.  I should have just waited for it to come up to queue on Netflix or just paid 2 bucks for a rental at Red Box (RIP Blockbuster).  Not to mention the money i had to throw down for some candy and a soda the size of a newborn child.

First Official Post

Hello future fans, admirers, haters, and world.

I had been diddling with the idea of creating a blog for quite some time now as I’ve got a lot to say and sometimes I don’t have the physical people/friends/family to share my thoughts and stories with. I will warn you that I have a lot to say. This is my first post so bear with me. I have big dreams about this blog. I will be trying to post every couple of days and sometimes I’ll be posting everyday and then other times I might not post for a week. I’ll be talking about my family, work, celebrities, current events, TV shows, movies, my pathetic excuse of a dating life, and just any other events or catastrophes that happen to me. Whether or not I am the cause of such happenings, I’ll let you be the judge of that.

I want to share a little about myself so that you can get an idea about me.  I will be keeping this blog anonymous at first. I Even though I will be sharing personal stories, I will keep certain personal elements to myself, such as names. I am 26 years old and my living situation is quite unique. I live with my married sister and her husband and our three dogs in a house in an urban city of Connecticut. No one in my family knows that I have this. And this blog is an extension of a Twitter account that I had created about a year ago under the same title @mid20slyfe and still use today.  I have been fumbling through my twenties and am nowhere close to where I want to be in life, but that’s not going to stop me from trying to eventually achieve my aspirations.

Please come along on this crazy, roller coaster ride that I know as my life. And to get a better feel of me, please visit my twitter @mid20slyfe.

As of right now I need to spray myself down with some sort of body mist spray to cover up the fact that i haven’t showered. I’m meeting one of my best friends to see American Ultra. Maybe I’ll post a review about it when I get back. If I don’t get back to you, have the night you’re going to have.

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