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Weekly Fall TV Recap #2

Not that I think it really matters, but I missed my weekly posting by a day, so those of you who actually care, sorry. Updating and reformatting my resume seemed a little bit more important. But in all honesty, I’d be doing the same thing as I did last week in regards to recapping two Scream Queens episodes instead of just one. It’s really no biggie, but more and more shows are coming on. Tonight is the premiere of American Horror Story:Hotel. It’ll probably be so good that I’ll probably want to post about it tomorrow, depending on personal circumstances. Stay tuned for it. Follow my blog on WordPress or by email. You could also follow my Twitter. Now that the shameless self promoting is over with, let’s begin!!!! SPOILER WARNINGS!!!!!!!

So, Sleepy Hollow finally premiered. God I missed this show, and Ichabod Crane’s outdated terminology. There’s just something about a British guy talking like he’s from another time that does it for me. That might be one of the reasons why I love Ren Faires so much, but back to the show. Ichabod was in jail and Abbie is now an agent with the FBI.. Are they not going to address that they got sent back in time from last season? How did they escape that? This needs to be a point in the near future, writers. During their time apart, Ichabod, before he became a hot jailbird, travelled back to Europe to go visit some of his dead ancestors, and found a tablet from about 5000 years ago that basically summed up that Abbie and Ichabod are forevermore partners in apocalyptic crime. There’s this demon that has been killing people that is fueled by shared anger, and your not supposed to shoot it until you see “The whites of their eyes.” Sounds familiar right? Well apparently that old saying from the Revolutionary War wasn’t pertaining to the British soldiers, but to this demon who was feeding off of all of this hatred within the region. That’s when its most vulnerable and can be destroyed. We also learned that Betty Ford was a secret badass who went about as a secret messenger and went on all sorts of dangerous and classified missions. Who would’ve thought when in a time when women didn’t have brains to be doing shit like that? Oh and the bitch that summons this demon is going to be bad news. The whole episode we don’t know who she is, she just keeps on doing shady shit and has a box and spews out spells. Come to find out in the very end of the episode, her name is Pandora as she’s standing at a bar with Abbie, and Abbie is all light hearted about her name. Like, HELLO!!!!! CRAZY SHIT HAS BEEN GOING ON!!!! YOU DON’T SUSPECT ANYTHING? AREN’T YOU A COP? This part really frustrated me, as you can clearly tell by all of the capitalization.

On How To Get Away With Murder, always doing their flash forwards, started out the episode with Sam running into Laurel and Mikaela and we find out that Connor is inside trying to stem the bleeding from Annalise’s gunshot wound, saying that she “asked for it” WHAT????? Literal mouth drop. Two month’s earlier, the grandmother, and key witness, to the Hapstall siblings case its found dead in her car, with evidence connecting the grandson the homicide and both of the siblings are arrested, yet again. At Nate’s preliminary hearing, Annalise is called to the stand and prosecutor basically attacks her (verbally), claiming that with the help of Nate, Annalise killed her husband. Mikaela ends up meeting a guy at the court house, goes out on a date with him, and in the episode we see a flash of him from the previous season doing something questionable. He is going to be trouble for Mikaela and not in the fun way that she needs. She’s already too wound up about everything. Nate’s official hearing happens and Nate’s lawyer (and Annalise’s former girlfriend) also attacked Annalise and insinuated that she was the one who murdered her husband and is trying to make her boyfriend take the fall for it. Nate’s case gets thrown out of court and the prosecutor is now head of the Hapstall siblings case. Fast forward two months later, and the prosecutor is dead at the Hapstall residence, the same location and time that Annalise is bleeding out form a gunshot wound.. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN THESE TWO MONTHS?!

We’re starting to learn what happened in the six weeks that were spent in Camelot in Once Upon A Time, but first, Dark Emma has placed a new curse on the town of Storybooke. Crossing the town line turns you into a tree, Dopey unfortunately finds out. While in Camelot we meet Guinevere and the tree that Merlin is apparently stuck in. Regina asserts herself as The Savior and uses the dagger to hush Emma up, which makes her displeased. Emma ends up erasing everyone’s memories at Camelot eventually and shares that information with her son. Regina then vows to undo the curse and the memory lapse. Also, we find out that a bunch of people from Camelot have been transferred to Storybook and have been lost in the woods. Regina concludes that Emma brought Arthur and half of his court back for a reason and that there are going to be bigger fish to fry. Also, Arthur lost Excalibur during transport. Robin goes to collect firewood and is captured by an evil spirit and Regina tries to fight it, though she can’t take it on all alone and ends up defeated, losing her love. Back in Camelot, Emma is trying to figure out how to get Merlin out of a tree, and Regina explains why she stepped in and lied about being The Savior, so Emma didn’t have to use dark magic. King Arthur decides to hold a royal ball in The Savior’s favor. Regina is given a necklace by Sir Percival to wear to that night’s events. She then decides that she’s not going to be attending the ball due to the fact that she never learned how to dance. While Charming is teaching her a basic fox trot, w find out that the necklace is enchanted to spy and Sir Percival finds out that Regina has been faking the whole Savior thing. At the ball, Sir Percival tries to out Regina and attack her, but Robin being the guy that he is, swoops in and takes the fatal blow from the sword. Emma ends up being able to save Robin using her dark magic, but is warned that everything comes with a price. Regina confesses everything to Arthur and states that everyone deserves a second chance and that he wants to complete the dagger and help take down the Dark One. Hook tries to save Emma using True Love’s Kiss, but Emma just tries to seduce him. We find out that the demon that took Robin is from the Underworld and has come to collect her payment and drag Robin to the Underworld since he escaped death in Camelot. In order to save Robin, someone has to give their life. Regina rushes to rescue and offers her life and inspired by her ultimate sacrifice, Snow joins in, then Charming, Arthur, and Leroy. Emma has a conversation with Rumple about what holds the Dark Ones back, family, friends, love, and loyalty. We find out that Emma has Excalibur hidden in her basement, still in its stone. Even though she has the power to wield it out, its not that simple. But she plans to use it to make it whole again and suck all of the light out.

Saturday Night Live came back. Miley hosted, and then did some weird performances. But OMG ALL OF THE POLITICAL SKETCHES…..Can Hilary please win so we have 4 solid years of that impression? It was brilliant. And please America, stop doing things because it’s funny. We don’t really want Trump to win.

Dancing With the Stars’ theme was the Stars’ most memorable year. Gary went home. No surprise there. Most of the performances were just above sub-par. The two that stood out were Bindi and Derek’s dance as well as Nick and Sharna’s. Bindi’s performance brought me to tears. She dedicated her year to the year she lost her dad. The whole routine was basically a little girl playing and dancing with her daddy. I was a puddle of tears the whole time. It was beautiful. She received the first 10 of the season. Nick and Sharna’s dance was definitely the dance with the most energy. His most memorable year was when he joined the Backstreet Boys. They saved him and his dance was a giant thank you to his four bothers. It was also to Everybody (Backstreet’s Back) and the audience was standing around the stage like it was a concert and every female BSB fan wished that she was Sharna is these moments. It was an awesome performance. It also helped that there was a boyband cheering section! AJ McLean, Jeff Timmons, Joey Fatone, Jacob Underwood, Erik Micheal, and Trevor Pennick were all in the audience cheering Nick on from the front. It was super duper awesome and kind of fulfilled some of my wildest dreams personally.

Last week on Scream Queens the university announced their new masot Coney, who then got slaughtered almost immediately after. Gigi and Dean Munsch move into the sorority house, there are TWO devils who attack the boys in the street with Everybody (Backstreet’s Back) playing. That was the funniest part of the episode. One kid got his arms cut off like in Monty Python and the Holy Grail. It was quite the epic scene. Chad seems to be getting funnier with every episode and Neckbrace (Hester) got a Chanel make over and is now Chanel No. 6. This week’s episode premiered Chanel-oween.. In my opinion it was quite brilliant to spoof Taylor Swift. Zayday announces her run for Kappa Kappa Tau presidency and is throwing a Haunted House Fundraiser. The location of said, haunted house is the known location of The Hag of Shady Lane. Chad and Hester are lured to the house with the intention to hook up in such a creepy and funny way only to find that the house is riddled with all of the dead bodies to date. Pete and Denise research the Hag and also find one of the sorority sisters that was present during the that chilling night. The house becomes party central where everyone is fascinated that they use real dead human bodies.. I’m sorry but would’t the smell of decomposition be overbearing in that house with like 6 different dead bodies? Denise also confronts her father about possibly being the baby that was birthed in the bathtub, though her father denies it. Zayday get’s captured by the Red Devil and her fate is unknown. The Hag at Shady Lane apparently was raising a baby in that house one month after the bathtub incident and it’s revealed that Gigi is the Hag in the black cloak. I knew that woman had something to do with the kid after that night.

What were some of your favorite moments from the shows?

31 Movies for Halloween

It’s finally October! Which means its finally, officially, Halloween season, my favorite time of year. It’s the best part of fall, in my opinion. Although most people associate Halloween with getting the bejesus scared out of them by going on those haunted hay rides or houses or going to amusement parks, I dislike things popping out at me. The last time I went to one of those I ended up punching one of the performers. They didn’t like that very much. I’m also super allergic to hay, so at least that excuse works in my favor. I really just love the spirit of halloween and the belief that spirits of unrest wander the night looking for the portal that will bring them peace. I also like real ghost hunting. Tell me of a location that is rumored to be haunted by an old (and hopefully friendly) ghost and I am more than happy to go explore with my camera. I try not to deal with places or things that have been attached to a demonic spirit, although there’s an occult museum not far from me run by the Warrens. The Warrens are best known for handling the case of Annabelle, the creepy doll that was haunted by a demonic spirit and was known to move around an apartment and leave creepy notes around. It allegedly attacked a friend of the owner and left claw marks that burned and all but disappeared two days later. This doll is not to be messed with. Visitors to the museum who have taunted the doll or attempted to touch it and throw it around have been known to get hurt, be in an accident, and die after fooling around with the doll. The Warrens keep it locked up in a case on display with a visible note that says “Do Not Touch”. They’ve also helped in the cases of the Amityville Horror and The Conjuring.

I’ve always wanted to go to this museum. Not only does it have this doll and case files on it, but also relics from around the world that the Warrens have acquired during their paranormal expeditions. It fascinates and intimidates me to be able to go there and see these objects face to face. To see these inanimate objects that have been known to cause destructions and fear among cultures, families, tribes, cities, and whatever else they were able to do. My sister won’t let me go. She believes that if I go, I’ll bring bad energy into the house and one of us will die a catastrophic death or be cursed. This just makes it all the more appealing to go since it’s something that is somewhat forbidden.

Since I more than likely won’t be able to get my kicks by going to the museum any time soon, even though it’s legitimately 20 minutes away from me, my other fave thing to do around this time of year is watch all kinds of halloween movies. I decided to compile a list, 31 to be exact, for everyday of the month of October. It only seems appropriate. They range from family-friendly to hide yo kids, hide yo wife status. They also go in no particular order.

  1. Hocus Pocus                              200                                                 If you can’t love Bette Midler as a somewhat sassy witch who doesn’t take any bullshit, we can’t be friends.
  2. Edward Scissorhands                                  200                                                              The scene where he pops the water bed always has me laughing really hard.
  3. Nightmare Before Christmas200                                          A lovely mix between the two best holidays, Halloween and Christmas.
  4. Harry Potter Series200                   Can I just mention how HOT Neville Longbottom got? NevilleLongbottomMatthewLewis-copy1
  5. Sleepy Hollow                                    200                                                     Old school legends and Johnny Depp will always do it for me.
  6. Beetlejuice Beetlejuice Bettlejuice200                   DAAAAAAYYYYOOO, Mi sa day, mis a day, mis a day-o. Me like come and me wan go home.
  7. Rocky Horror Picture Show                                200                                                                      TIM. CURRY. IN. SEXY. DRAG
  8. Halloweentown                                         200                                                       Disney Channel Original Movie Classic
  9. Young Frankenstein                        200                                               Mel Brooks’ humor.
  10. Casper                                        200                                               13-year-old Devon Sawa = every 90s middle schools’ dream
  11. Hotel Transylvania                           200                                                   The best Adam Sandler movie that I’ve seen in a while
  12. Silence of the Lambs                     200                                               It goes well with a nice Chianti.
  13. Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street 200                                   Because Johnny Depp sings with Helena Bonham Carter.
  14. The Shining                                     200                                                Nope, there’s nothing creepy about an isolated and secluded hotel in the mountains during the winter when you spend it with your family all alone.
  15. The Book of Life           200                         So many colors, so much life, and death. Happy Day of the Dead
  16. Dark Shadows                                                   200                                                                    Tim Burton/Johnny Depp/Michelle Pfeiffer and a vampire that wakes up and its the 70s? Brilliant.
  17. Little Shop of Horrors                       200                                                  A singing, man-eating plant, yes.
  18. Ghostbusters     200                       If there’s something strange in your neighborhood, who you gonna call?
  19. The Craft                                      200                                                 Like a creepy version of Mean Girls.
  20. The Addams Family                           200                                                 Do I have to explain?
  21. Warm Bodies                          200                                      The Romeo and Juliet of zombie movies.
  22. Practical Magic                              200200
  23. The Exorcist                                 200                                                    I love little foul-mouthed demon-filled children.
  24. The Conjuring200             Based on a true story.
  25. The Corpse Bride                          200                                           Another Tim Burton/Johnny Depp/Helena Bonham Carter classic
  26. Labyrinth                 200                   DAVID BOWIE. CRYSTAL BALLS. GOBLIN KING. BULGE.
  27. Goonies.                        200                               Never say die.
  28. Death Becomes Her             200                           Immortality can take its toll.
  29. Gremlins                                          200                                              Don’t feed them after midnight.
  30. Tower of Terror.                                                   200
  31. The Blair Witch Project                                         200                                                                     Nothing is scarier than your imagination.

Weekly Fall TV Show Recap #1

I have been MIA.  My life has been uneventful and my thoughts have been filled with “I can’t wait to take a nap” and then proceeding to pass out for four hours.  I had intentions of blogging my thoughts about some of my favorite fall TV shows when I first started this blog, however, THERE ARE TOO MANY GOOD TV SHOWS.  I can barely keep up with watching all of them when they air.  Not to mention that I would have to be awake and coherent if I tried to blog about them right after they air. So I will try to do this on a weekly basis.  Cross your fingers that this will work out.

On Dancing With the Stars it was TV theme week. Kim had to withdraw, due to her health, for the competition.  But also, they have been past stars who did not perform in the live showing, but were able to use their scores from the previous week because of an injury or whatever.  It’s not necessarily her fault that she couldn’t fly to make it there in time.  Had her doctor not been so last minute with his news, she would’ve driven out to LA.  I can’t believe Gary Busey is still in the running on this show.  His performances are always an eyesore, but I’ll give him this, that man has got spirit.  Paula Deen also seems to be stumbling around week after week.  During her rehearsal footage she kept complaining that she was tired. Well Paula, you’re old. You’re gonna be tired and you’re not going to remember the steps that well when you’re old and tired.  Please be gone.  It was a shocker to find that Andy Grammer was in jeopardy of being booted off of the show.  He seems to be doing well for someone who doesn’t have any dance in his background, though he did struggle with his quickstep this week.  Lets hope his fans can pull through with the voting so that he can stick around a few more weeks.  Alek always surprises me week after week with his performances.  He is turning out to be quite the man and anyone who dons fangs for a True Blood number is a hottie (and winner) in my book. The best dance of the night was, by far, Nick and Sharna’s Viennese Waltz to the Downton Abbey theme song.  It was beautiful and poignant and when the number was over I realized that it brought me to tears. He tied for the highest score of the night with Alexa and her Breaking Bad number, which was a very creative routine, but I’m not into the jazz routines.  I like the traditional ballroom and latin dances.

As far as series premiers go, Scream Queens was awesome, in my opinion.  It was classic Ryan Murphy material.  People seem to be confused with whether or not its supposed to be a comedy or a horror series.  I don’t understand why people cannot comprehend that its supposed to be a comedic horror. Its hilarious that someone dies while face to face texting the killer.  I also find it fabulous that Nick Jonas’ character is 1) gay and 2) one of the villains. (Sorry for that spoiler) Lea Michele’s character is so freaking creepy in so many different ways and still has a bit of Rachael Barry in it. Though it seems obvious who the killer is, it’s probably not.  That would be too easy.  At this point it could be anybody.  I have my suspicions though.  I think its the mother/lawyer of the sorority.  She is fundamentally stuck in the ’90s, as far as her fashion goes, due to a traumatic experience.  Or it could be the boyfriend. He does get turned on when dead bodies are mentioned. I’m looking forward to catching the third episode tonight.

Once Upon A Time kicked off it’s fifth season this past Sunday.  They introduced Merida (Disney’s Brave) and we are in the land of Camelot and King Arthur. We learned that King Arthur was able to pull Excalibur from the stone, but the infamous sword was missing its tip.  The tip is the Dark One’s dagger.  Personally I didn’t see this coming at all and I find it interesting that the writers were able to put yet another twist into this show. Emma is struggling with turning completely dark as it is still in the early stages of her being The Dark One and I get why.  She still thinks of herself as The Savior, but I think she should embrace it and use the evil for good. That probably won’t happen, however it’ll still be fun to see Emma with a bad attitude and short temper. It’s very rare to see a character get to be completely different from when a series began.  By the end of the episode, its six weeks later and no one has any recollection of the time that has passed while they were in Camelot.   The writers are sure to keep us on our toes, as per usual.

How To Get Away With Murder also made its season premier this past week.  We found out who killed Rebecca and that was quite the shock.  I had no clue Bonnie had that in her.  I feel horrible for Sam.  He thinks Rebecca just ran off and doesn’t want to be bothered and he’s heartbroken over it, but then it also looks like that he has the hots for his professor. Which, I know they’re all adults at this point with it being law school and all, however, its still kind of wrong on a professional level. The practice is trying to take one a new case where the crime didn’t occur at Analise’s house and we also find out that she dabbled in being a lesbian back in the day when her former lover tries taking over Nate’s case in the murder of Analise’s husband.  It’s a good thing we all know that he didn’t do it, thought it still doesn’t sit well that she framed him for it in the first place.  This show also does a fast forward to two months and we find Analise lying on the floor in a pool of her own blood after we hear a gun shot and see Sam running away from a house. This is mildly disturbing.

Sleepy Hollow, American Horror Story Hotel, Saturday Night Live and Undatelable are making their comebacks soon, only adding to my watchload.  I have a show to watch literally EVERY NIGHT OF THE WEEK. Bye bye social life.  I hope I don’t fall behind too much.

If anyone wants to talk more in depth about any of the shows that I’ll be blogging about, please do not hesitate to comment or contact me.

Thoughts To Put Me To Sleep

I haven’t felt all that inspired to write recently.  I think it comes from a lack of doing anything.  This whole week has been pretty boring. For three days I had no work.  If you think about it, that would’ve been a really good time to write some extra stuff down, after doing assignments for the Writing 101 course that I’ve been taking, but alas nothing came to mind.  I’ve just been feeling numb on the inside about a lot of things recently.  Between my job, my injury, and personal life, it all seems to bother me and at the same time it doesn’t.  I’ve just been going through the motions from day to day.

Work, when I have it, hasn’t been the greatest.  Besides being in pain for the better part of my short shifts, people in the office apparently have problems with me in regards to how the mail is sorted on each route in the office. It’s all petty bullshit and people want to complain about things when, in reality, they really don’t have much to complain about.  I work with a bunch of adult-sized, spoiled, privileged, annoying children.  They look like functioning adults, but most of them whine and cry like fucking toddlers.  It’s ridiculous.  Just shut up and do your job and then maybe I wouldn’t be stuck doing your job for you. Learn to fucking grow a pair, if you have a problem with me, come to me and say what you want to say.  Don’t send a messenger to do your dirty work, especially when your messenger also has issues with how much you whine and cry about your job.  Your job isn’t mentally challenging, any goon can do it.  I feel embarrassed to be one of the youngest people in the building, yet my maturity far exceeds those who have been working there LONGER THAN THE TIME THAT IVE BEEN ALIVE.

My injury just seems to never end. Two months I’ve had this sprained ankle.  I’m still in a lot of pain and dealing with swelling.  I got results from my MRI back and it says that there was no serious long-term damage and that its just not healing and that the sprain itself was kind of bad and that I sprained the major tendon in my right foot/ankle.  I was upgraded from a flimsy basic air cast/bandage combo to an actual orthopedic boot. That’s something that should have happened long ago, people.  Also, I’ve pretty much have run out of painkillers.  My doctor knows I’m in pain, and yet didn’t prescribe me anything.  It’s annoying.  So I’ve had to come up with creative pill combos to help ease my pain and get me to sleep at night, otherwise I just toss and turn.  No, it’s probably not the safest thing to do.  In all honesty, the painkillers I had, weren’t doing too much for me anyway.  I couldn’t feel any effect of them actually working.  Hopefully this boost will do the trick.

I feel like my personal life is a mess and its just going to stay that way no matter what I attempt to do.  It’s highly discouraging.  There’s only been two of my friends who have personally asked for updates on my foot.  I get that everyone is busy with their own life with school and work and whatnot, but its not everyday that your friend is suffering so badly in all aspects of her life, from an injury that isn’t all that mediocre.  Maybe it’s because I have too much time on my hands right now, but I feel forgotten by a bunch of people.  My Netflix account can only be a substitute for friendship for so long.  I’m bored. I don’t get out of the house much, except for work or the occasional errand.  Dating has become harder as well.  Because I’m in so much pain “hooking up” is totally off of the table and in the society we live in, that’s all guys want to do now.  They don’t bother with actual courtship or wooing. Hell, its pulling teeth to get a guy to take me to get fucking Chipotle at this point.  It’s obnoxious.

Anyway, I think I can feel my pill cocktail slowly hitting me.  These lids of mine are getting harder and harder to hold up.  I think its time to put my ankle on ice and get to bed.  Maybe I’ll actually get a full night’s sleep for the first time in about 2 months.  Wouldn’t that be nice, however more than likely unrealistic.

We Were Supposed to Last Forever

I didn’t think this would end,

At least not like this.

Tears are streaming down my face,

My chest is heaving from the sobs.

I’m having trouble breathing.

I can’t wrap my head around what he’s saying,

This all seems so out of the blue,

We were supposed to last forever,

Now forever has come and gone.

How can he say that he loves me,

While simultaneously breaking my heart?

I stand there watching her cry,

Not knowing what I should say.

I thought she would understand

That I couldn’t let it continue.

We were supposed to last forever

And sometimes when you love someone,

You have to let them go

I told her that I still loved her,

No matter what she thinks, it’s true.

I didn’t mean to hurt her,

That’s the last thing I want to do.

150 Word True Story

One minute I was fine, laughing with my friends & having a grand old time. The last thing I remembered was saying goodbye to two friends that had to catch a train back home.  The rest was a mystery to me. Apparently i had been causing a ruckus at the bar.  I was grabbing people inappropriately, trying to make out with all of my friends.  I kept slipping and falling down. I had to be carried out of the place. I only had 3 drinks in a span of 4 hours, from what I remembered.  My stomach was in knots on the drive home. I tried telling him to pull over, but my words kept slurring & he couldn’t understand me. I vomited inside of my car.  It tasted worse coming up than when it did going down. I couldn’t put things together the next morning, until I looked up symptoms. I was roofied.

A Place To Call My Own

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Home Turf.”

I have a place to live, but i can’t say that I can call it mine. So I’m going to compile a list of things that I would like in my own home that would surely make me feel at home.

  1. Giant, comfy couch with tons of cozy blankets and pillows for binge watching Netflix, movie marathons, and the much needed afternoon napping.
  2. Claw foot soaking tub with a window overlooking the beach/ocean that my property stands on. Must have a wine glass holder, and something to prop up a book and hold any necessary bath-time accessories. Rubber duckies may or may not be included.
  3. My own reading room, with the walls covered in books from floor to ceiling and rich mahogany, a leather chaise lounge and a stone fireplace from renaissance times. And over the mantle will be a family crest and two swords crossing.  Also torches or lanterns on either side.
  4. A personal wine cellar with temperature control and an endless supply of cheese and bread to go along with the many wine tastings i would be having.
  5. King size temperpedic mattress dressed with the finest linens and supporting pillows.
  6. Window seats all around the house so I can sit and drink tea and think or write or when i get sick of all of the rich wood and burning embers in my reading room, to read something a little more light hearted.

If We Were At Starbucks…

I’d wait for you to join the line because right now I can barely afford a cup of coffee. I’m dead serious. This injury has screwed me so much. I’m barely getting hours at work. I’ve had to borrow money from my sister, which I don’t know if I’m ever going to be able to pay her back. My life has been awful recently.  My social life is completely in the can.  No one calls me for anything, besides one friend who just does super nerdy things with me. Now that the summer is over she has a job to go to everyday (she was a teacher, but recently accepted a job at a library).  So now everyone is busy in their life except for me.  I spend most of my days watching movies and TV, which sounds awesome in theory, but I’m lonely and tired. I’ve gained most of the weight that I lost.  All of that hard work went down the drain and it blows.

I’m trying very hard to save money in any way that I possibly can. I’ve become a moocher.  If you want to hang out with me, you need to pay my way.  Hence my soy chai latte, thank you. It’s so kind of you to spring for my drink, though you had no choice, #sorrynotsorry. At least I’m upfront about such things which my friends appreciate. I think they also feel sorry for me and for my situation.

My injury doesn’t seem to be getting any better.  I’m still in a lot of pain, no matter what I do.  Constantly standing on my feet for the mere 2-3 hours that I’m at work isn’t helpful either, but I gotta do what I gotta do in order to do my job. However, I’m supposed to hear the results of my MRI on my right ankle this week.  I hope that it shows something and not nothing.  I’m not making up my pain and suffering.  I hope that there is some proof to it.  I also hope that there is some sort of progressive step that I can take towards recovery and healing.  I want to be able to work at full capacity again, especially in time for the holidays.  I need the overtime money, DESPERATELY.

I feel like my life is spiraling out of control and I have no clue what the hell I can do about it.  I want to quit my job, however, with the injury, I’m limited as to what I can do physically right now.    And then there is my resume.  My resume is full with job experience, but employers tend to look down on the fact that i don’t have a degree.  Sorry that I don’t know what I want to study, however I am smarter than most of the people who graduate from college.  I’m a logical thinker. I’m also very progressive and know how to manage my time well. I’m tired of seeing people in the workforce who claim to have all of this “education” and “experience” and yet they are some of the dumbest people that I have ever come across. It’s frustrating for someone who like me, who can do pretty much any entry-level job, but people turn me down because I don’t have a single college credit.  It’s complete bullshit. I’m sorry, but it is.

My love life is completely non-existant.  The injury is one reason.  It limits what I’m willing to do, also I’ve recently been more focused on this (the blog) and not on the handful of dating sites/apps that I’m apart of.  Also, no one of great calibre has attempted to come in contact with me.  I’m not just going to go out with anyone, especially when most of the guys who contact me are way less than appealing.  I’m not saying that I’m a perfect 10 as far as physically, but I have personality and a good head on my shoulders and I have goals that I would like to achieve, and most of the guys who want to try to get to know me are not on my level.  They’re boring and most of them I’m simply not attracted to in any way shape or form.

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